Monday, December 10, 2012

Tis the Season . . .



A minimum $5 donation to Toys for Tots will have Santa delivering a compilation of goodies to your inbox on Christmas Eve.

I am participating with two donations:


Summary: Carlisle may be the patriarch of the family, but as a Cullen you eventually learn that Esme rules the roost. Now that Jake has joined the family it’s his turn to learn the rules as well. BDSM/slash. Written for the 2012 Christmas Wishes Compilation in support of Toys for Tots.

TEASER:
They had reached the bottom of a staircase which lead to a basement Jacob hadn't even known the Cullen's had in their home. He couldn't respond to Carlisle as the scent of stale vampire blood sent a tremor through his body.
“Can you control yourself, Jacob?”
His eyes snapped up to meet Esme who stood next to lengths of heavy chain dangling from above.
“I'm still on two legs, aren't I?” he snapped back. Jacob was catching on, but still didn't know what he was about to have to do. He hated that the situation had spiked his endorphins, and that his body was crackling with energy on high alert.
Jacob's knees cracked against the concrete as he was forced abruptly down.
“You will respect my wife – your Mistress,” Carlisle muttered firmly by his ear.
“This will never work. You can't teach an old dog new tricks,” Edward complained from Jacob's left.
“Edward,” Esme warned. “Since you have so much to say, you may go first in explaining why the fuck we have to do this, what events brought us here.” She glanced up at Jasper, “You may begin preparing him while he talks.”

~*~*~*~
As a special bonus, TrueEnglishRose and I are also teaming up to do a Boys & Their Toys futuretake:  Toysper Discovers Playskool
This will ONLY be available in the compilation -- we will NOT be posting to any fanfiction site at a later date. 

TEASER:
I could act like a bitch on the outside, but opening that door and seeing those two hot-as-fuck specimens shoving their tongues down each other’s throats was too much. My fantasy of doing them both had started taking shape the first time Jasper had come in and eventually confessed that Edward was his lover. The fantasy had only became clearer when they’d come into the shop together to do Jasper’s piercing and I got to see firsthand what the boy was packing. 

It was no wonder Edward had fallen in love. 

So when Edward called me up a few weeks ago and asked if I’d been serious about sharing the kitty with them, I couldn’t say no.

Edward dragged a gaping Jasper behind him after I called them in. As soon as they passed me, I hip-checked Jasper and told him to close his mouth unless he planned on putting something in it.

It had taken us all of about five minutes to get through the preliminaries of getting everyone out of their clothes, and for me to glance at the piercing: on my knees just before I took him into my mouth.

Jasper cried out in shock. “Bella! What . . .”

“Jasper, have you not noticed that all three of us are very naked in my shop? Do you think we’re here to compare ink and steel?”

“No, but -”

“Edward, shut him up so I can work here,” I snapped, and promptly took Jasper’s dick back into my mouth. 

His protests vanished as Edward closed his mouth over Jasper’s and I sucked for all I was worth.







Saturday, September 29, 2012

Team Stand Up For Katalina

Hello my wayward darlin's~

My first official manuscript has been sent off to RenRom for inclusion in the 4th installment of their Candy Collection series ... anticipated release date is December 11th, but more on that later.  Today I want to bring your attention to a very worthy cause.


Have you, or someone you know, ever been affected by cancer? Chances are, you're answer is "Yes." Please take a moment to read Katalina's story and all the lovely messages being left for her on the blog. $5 will get you the PDF collection that is in the works of outtakes and one shots, some fanfic, some original fic.  New authors to well known favorites are participating.  I personally am contributing a When In Romania outtake of Bella's first Halloween as a vampire.  Further, I will NOT be posting this outtake to any of my three fic profiles at a later date ... it will only be available in the compilation. It is my understanding some of the other authors will be doing this as well.

I leave you with the simple plea to give what you can.

An excerpt from A Very Cullen Halloween: a WIR outtake ~

“What do you mean, ‘We don’t celebrate Halloween’?” I growled in disbelief at Edward while his eyes shifted from my face to the right.  “Don’t look at Jasper for help,” I warned, earning a faint chuckle from Emmett, who stood behind me.

I mean, it was Halloween for goodness sakes.  My favorite holiday while human.  No one told me I’d have to give it up to become a vampire. Not that it would have changed my decision, but still.

They had me surrounded and the training instilled in me by my dad had me on edge. I hadn’t tried bolting in a month, they could trust me … but they didn’t.  It wasn’t like the fews times I had run, I’d gone after humans.  I just wanted to be able to run at full speed through the mountains and hunt along the way. They said I was too careless and messy.

“Bella, love, we can’t eat candy, remember? There is no point in us going,” he tried to calm me, and for a moment it worked, until I stomped my foot and hissed at Jasper to knock it off.

“But, Edward, we are vampires! How can you not see the humor in that?”

He pulled his plump lips into a tight line and sighed heavily. The way he was acting, you’d think he felt as if he were dealing with a petulant child.

“Please. I’ve been good, but we’ve been cooped up in this castle for ages,” I whined and again heard Emmett’s amusement behind me, this time in the form of a snort. My words fell short when I noticed Edward was smirking at me.  “What?”

Keeping the smile in place, he came forward and took my hands in his, coaxing them to uncurl from the fists I’d made.  “You are adorable,” he crooned at me then leaned forward and kissed me. Gentle at first, just a whisper of movement as our lips brushed against each other.

At my involuntary whimper, he pressed harder, my lips beginning to smash against my teeth as he applied more force.  Venom was starting to drip onto my tongue, pooling there with the heightening arousal of my body.

Edward guided one of my hands to the front of his pants, showing me that he could smell me … and he liked it.  Feeling brave, I pulled back from the kiss and batted my lashes at him.

“I could dress up as a naughty schoolgirl,” I taunted with an innocent twist of my body while I swung my arms and pouted, continuing to look at him from under my lashes.

Edward groaned. Jasper barked out a laugh before slapping a hand over his mouth, and Emmett, well, he had his arms wrapped around his midsection while he guffawed with the gaiety of a circus clown.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

To Serve Is Divine heads up!

***IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT***

I've been picked up by Renaissance Romance Publishing to publish The Divine Trilogy.

If you do not have, but want, the PDFs of TSID and the outtakes, please feel free to use flagfic.com or another conversion site to convert the story.  I will be pulling them from fanfiction.net on Monday, September 3rd per contractual obligation.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Next Big Thing: WIP Blog Hop-some tags you can't ignore

So, I have been tagged in the WIP Blog Hop.

My official website isn't ready yet, so... I’m going to post this here and link it to my author page on Facebook.

The rules are simple --
***Answer the ten questions about your current WIP (Work In Progress) on your blog
***Tag five other writers/bloggers and add their links so we can hop over and meet them.
It’s that simple.

Ten Interview Questions for The Next Big Thing:

What is the working title of your book?

It's actually three books comprising the Divine Trilogy.  However, the first book will be To Serve Is Divine.

Where did the idea come from for the book?

Most people know, and for those that don't, I've already written about half of the trilogy and posted it as a fanfiction story, also titled TSID... however, in the rework, TSID will become the first book, while the bulk of the fanfic will be retitled A Divine Life. As for the idea of where it originally came from... I had stumbled across a couple of BDSM fanfics and wanted more... so I decided to write it!

What genre does your book fall under?

Without question it is graphic erotica.

Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?

Okay, I’m going to make these selections based on how I see my characters in my head... the actor that matches the closest gets a nod here!




Kate Winslet as Catherine O’Chancey...feisty emerald eyed Irish lass

Hugh Jackman as Jayden Masterson... how could you not say “Aye, Sir” to that?

Zac Efron as Micah Sanders... chauffeur, right hand man, curious sub

Jill Goodacre as Samantha Jones... secretary and submissive

What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?

Gah!  Condensed summaries are going to become the bane of my existence aren't they? Okay, I'm cheating and snitching my 'hook' from my query letter!


Catherine O’Chancey, an experienced submissive in her mid-twenties, has decided that she is done hiding from her troubled past and is ready to rejoin the BDSM lifestyle which leads her to Jayden Masterson, an experienced Dom who is looking for more than his current subs can give him; he just doesn’t realize how much more until he finds Catherine.

Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?

I'm in the process of working out the kinks with Renaissance Romance Publishing, with any luck we will come to an agreement and they will be my home!

How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?

Well, the fanfic version was written over a few months.  So far I have spent about 6 weeks working on the overhaul and new writing, as books 1 and 3 will contain mostly new material!

What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?

Well, there's "that" book... but I'm truly hoping I do more justice for the lifestyle.  Hmmm... I guess I could say The Sleeping Beauty trilogy by Anne Roquelaure, as it was the first BDSM literature I was exposed to.

Who or What inspired you to write this book?

Easy, my loyal fanfic readers. I have received so much encouragement from them since first starting in 2010, that I know for a fact I would not have had the nerve to do this without them.

What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest?

I am endeavoring to create a story that will not only excite and thrill the reader, in the naughtiest of ways, but will enlighten them to the true beauty of a Dominant and submissive relationship.  While this story will begin as nothing more than a contractual sexual relationship, by the end, my main characters will have found not only themselves, but each other.

The authors I have tagged are:
Catastrophia
http://www.kilynnwrites.blogspot.com/ 
S. Matyszczyk
M. Reyes
MB Massin
K. Finnegan

I will update their blog links when I get them. Authors-- your posts are due up next Wednesday - August 29, 2012!

Friday, July 27, 2012

Collaboration DEBUT!

My first project with JA Mash... our drabble entry for the DYAC prompt challenge.  



Summary:  One day, three missent texts and four couples... secrets spilled and relationships kindled but who will be the last to know? A soap opera of fanfic proportions. Rated M for language and slashy lemons.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Checking in ... what's going on...

Howdy darlin's, thought I'd drop by to share some of what's been keeping me busy...

First off, in the real world:



I've been talking with a publishing house and have made the decision to rework To Serve Is Divine into a 3 book series.  My author page on Facebook can be found HERE and you can follow me on Twitter HERE @REHargrave .  The fabulous JA Mash is in the process of helping me set up a new blog that will be for my "published persona."

Secondly, in the fanfiction world:

A Road Trip to Remember is a multi author collaboration that has finally started posting, and yes, I am one of the authors!  It's under penname UtterChaosFanfiction HERE

Summary: 3 friends venture out for the trip of a lifetime, along the way, their wayward party doubles and their lives are all changed in more ways than they expected. Collab fic. Rated M for L&L All canon pairings and all human (banner by the lovely SoapyMayhem)



Saturday, June 30, 2012

New Stories!

Hiya everyone.  Well, the 30th is here, which means that those of us that donated to the Fandom4Autism cause can now share our pieces.  I've got two new stories that launched today:





Collaboration with TrueEnglishRose, here's the sequel to Boys & Their Toys



Wednesday, May 30, 2012

A couple of things...

Hey darlin's... first off, I got notification today that my recent one shot, Slots, was pulled... whether I was reported or it was just FF police doing their thing, I can't be sure... so I am in the process of uploading all my stories to TWCS under penname texasbella.  Haven't decided if I'll keep the fanfiction.net account open once everything is set or not.  Good news about TWCS, I can include pics!  I'm starting with my one shots, then will do full fics and will tackle drabbles last... as I've got over 20 stories on FF, it'll take me a few days. ***NOTE: You do have to register on TWCS in order to read as they have an age restriction***




Secondly... THANK YA'LL again!!  Found out this morning that I got a couple of Eclipse Awards! And they're too pretty not to share:



Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Drabble Wars Picture Prompt Challenge!


 
Who's ready to write?!!!

Rachel and I are upping the challenge once again... we’re busting out the visuals! For this Picture Prompt Challenge you will not have unlimited time to plan and write, this is a quick put on your thinking cap and let the creative juices flow! As always...there will not be a definitive winner...other than the readers who get more amazing stories!

Rules:

1. NO LIMIT on number of authors participating...just sign up by adding your FF author profile link at the bottom of this doc in the sign up area. Just like with the monthly "war" docs, as you decide your title and summary (and then story link), please come back to this doc to add them under your profile link.

2. You have approximately TWO WEEKS to write your drabble.

3. Drabbles should post in their entirety on ONE WEEKEND...BEGINNING FRIDAY, MAY 26TH. So keep this in mind when you are writing, these should be short-ish drabbles.

4. You are welcome to get a banner for your drabble and add it to the album with the appropriate Challenge Banner.

5. Now for the twist...your prompt. Normally we give you a single word as your theme or prompt, this time we are giving you pictures... 12 to be exact... you may choose to use up to 3 of the provided pictures to base your story on. Please let us know which pictures you are using in your summary.

*** SIGN UP IN THE DRABBLE WARS FORUM GROUP ON FACEBOOK HERE***

Ready, Set, Write!!!












Friday, May 4, 2012

And some more nominations!

Humbled, floored, speechless... there are not enough adjectives out there to describe how blown away I am right now.  In addition to the Eclipse nominations, I've received several noms in the Wordsmith Awards.  *wipes tear*  THANK YOU!!!

Voting runs May 17th thru May 26th





My collaboration story, Boys and Their Toys, with TrueEnglishRose is also up for 3 awards:





Wednesday, May 2, 2012

I've been nominated!

Thank you so much to those that nominated me!!  XOXOXO



Voting opens May 5th

Friday, April 20, 2012

Happy 4/20!!

Hey ya'll!!  I know it's been a while since I posted...  I'll try to do better.  Wanted to drop a post to let those that haven't figured it out yet, know that Uninhibited Wallflower is back.  Two new chapters have gone up, although there is a new story link as I pulled the old one, reorganized the chapters into shorter ones and reposted the whole thing.  Here is the new link:


Also, I'm going to try to start posting any "inspirational" pics that I find to go along with the new chapters, so to start us off, here is a manip that the fantastic JA Mash did for chapter 37:


And for chapter 38, which posted yesterday, here is Doc and his bike:



Monday, March 12, 2012

Friendly Reminder

Just wanted to remind everyone that the deadline for submitting entries to the Tales from the Void anonymous contest is approaching....March 31st.  The contest is hosted by Soapy Mayhem and I am one of the judges :)

So, put on your thinking caps, get out your notebooks and let your fantasies unwind!!

Friday, March 9, 2012

New Story...Conquered Hearts

Ahoy me mateys!  I started posting a new short story yesterday that has been written as a birthday gift for my twi-sister, Holly!  Hope you'll give it a shot!







Thursday, March 8, 2012

I've been nominated!


Seems my dear wifey, Arc Morpheus was busy playing with nomination buttons...she put me in as Best Beta for my efforts on HeartOfDarkess' The Ripper  as well as nominating HOD for Best Grasp of Character for The Ripper.  I will also add that my beautiful graphics whiz and dear friend, JA Mash, has been nom'd for Best Banner...


Voting opens March 12, 2012

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Short-n-Sweet Saturday

Well, this one is definitely short and so NOT sweet...because it's NAUGHTY...oh gawd is it naughty and I LOVE IT!!!

This week's "one shot" rec comes to you from kitkat681's compilation of birthday one shots under the heading of "You Say It's Your Birthday."  They are, of course, all fantastic...but I'm specifically recommending the latest addition, chapter 11 as it was written for yours truly :)

Thank you so much KK!!

You Say It’s Your Birthday
SUMMARY: Happy birthday to you...is it your birthday? Check here to see if Kitkat got you something for your special day...constantly updated to show my love...all pairings/canon/non-canon/slash/fem-slash/EVERYTHING!
TEASER:
CPOV
They were standing around my living room in all different states of undress. Rose and Alice were both wearing delicate lingerie, since they liked to have it ripped off of them. Esme was nude, gloriously bare for all to see. Jasper and Emmett had on low-slung sweats, and nothing else. And our two newest members were still dressed in their street clothes, although I could see from the bulge pushing against the front of his jeans, and the way her little nipples poked through her dress, they were far from immune to the visual stimulation in front of them.
"So, are we ready to get started?" I asked, slowly unbuttoning my dress shirt and tossing it onto the chair behind me. Emmett stuffed his hand down the front of his sweats when I moved to the zipper of my pants. He was always so eager.
"I think instead of our usual warm-up, we should take the time to make our newcomers feel welcome," I suggested, and the enthusiastic nods from everyone made me laugh. "Excellent! Boys, we're going to make Edward feel at home, while the ladies take care of Bella."
Both Edward and Bella looked shocked, but I had told then about our arrangement. If they wanted to play, they followed my instructions implicitly. If they wanted to leave, they could.
But until they walked out that door...they were mine.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

WIP Worthy Wednesday

Have a special recommendation for ya'll today!  I beta this one and have been hooked since the very first "outline" was sent to me by HeartOfDarkess.  The chapters are elegantly written, transporting you deep within the story in no time, and will definitely leave you craving more.  Please set aside some time to go get caught up and be sure to leave her some love...she's pouring her heart into this story and your love will help refill it to keep her going...






Summary:  Edward, a nomad killer vampire, alone for more than three centuries, comes upon his next prey in the form of talk back radio psychologist and dabbler in the dark side of human nature, Bella Swan. Darkward, kinky Bella. Rated M for violence/lemons.

Teaser:  "Edward, I've waited so long…"I whispered with a smile as I made my way over to the table he had been laying on, at my mercy, only moments before. My eyes widened as they took in the copious amounts of the thick, transparent fluid that had been expelled from his cock and mouth, which was now spread all over the black leather surface, its smell divine, its consistency as heavy as oil. Thoughts of him letting go as I brandished my whip and flicked it across his delightfully firm flesh invaded my every thought and unable to stop myself, I reached down and dipped the pad of my index finger into what he had left behind. As I did, I felt a warm, tingling sensation as his essence met with my skin.

"Well, well, my pet, you are full of so many surprises," I said excitedly as I rubbed his ejaculate between my thumb and forefinger, the feel of it unlike anything I'd ever known, the warmth spreading down my fingertips and through to my bones.

"Oh," I exclaimed breathlessly, the urge to bathe in him taking over, and without thought as to the consequences, I ran my fingertips over the top of my breasts, and dipped them beneath the line of my corset, moaning at the overwhelming sensation as I brushed the fluid over my already hardened nipples.

I had been craving release even before our scene had begun, and knew that with Edward's concern about harming me, he was not quite ready to give me what I most needed. Of course, I knew what I had to do…confess more about who I was and convince him otherwise. I moaned as I dipped my finger into the fluid once more and brought my hand to my face, first inhaling the sweetness of his unique aroma before hungrily wrapping my mouth around my digit.

My eyes rolled in the back of my head as the heat radiated around my lips and his flavour burst on my tongue, the sensations sending my tastebuds into overdrive, causing my mouth to water.

"Mmmm," I moaned as I sucked and licked my fingers, swallowing him down like a starved animal until nothing remained. Craving his fluids like some sort of maddened addict, in that moment I wanted nothing more than to strip bare and rub his leavings all over my body. I quickly divested myself of my panties and dropped them to the floor, placed one hand on the edge of the table and opened my stance, licking my lips as I ran my free hand through the fluid and brought my fingers to my already dripping folds. I hissed as the heat of him came into contact with my sensitive skin, the sensations that were now coursing through me teetering deliciously between pain and pleasure, the feeling unlike anything I could even imagine as I spread the fluid all over my needy flesh.

"Fuck," I whispered. My body immediately craving more, I climbed onto the table and sat my ass directly on where he had erupted most, the sudden surge of heat causing my pussy to throb with need, the delicious sting as it made contact with its softness a reminder of what he truly was.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Short-n-Sweet Sunday

Good Morning Darlin's...one shot recs should get posted on Saturdays, but seeing as I was out on a mini-vacay yesterday, you're getting this week's today instead.


Not sure if this one has a banner, but, it's Clamps, Plugs and Spreader Bars by fallanydeeper.  This one will definitely give you a quick jump start into some lemony times...whether it's with your toy box or your partner.  Enjoy!






Summary:  Take a journey with Rose and Emmett as they invite a novice submissive into their playroom for one night. Rated for language and lemons.

Teaser:  As soon as Rose walked into the house when she had finished up at the garage, her skin smelling faintly of oil and metal, she knew what was on the agenda for tonight. She knew by the way I had positioned myself on the couch, the straight upper back, my left ankle resting on my knee, one arm slung on the arm of the couch and the other planted on the sofa cushions beside my thigh, my eyes were hard as steel and my mouth set to a thin, determined line.
Of course, our mystery guest, kneeling naked at my feet, her head bowed in a sign of submission and her mousy hair falling in curls over her shoulders; a thick, heavy collar clasped around her neck with a leash attached to the ring, the end of the length of leather being gripped in my palm, would probably have clued Rose in quicker than my appearance.
I stood up, dropped the end of the leash and walked toward Rose, who was impressively standing in the centre of the living room with her feet shoulder width apart, her hands clasped behind her back and her head lowered slightly. The respect she showed me in this stance had my cock hardening for her. She pleased me greatly with how she responded so quickly to me. Without even having to command her, she knew how to stand, how to behave, how to submit. I looked over my shoulder, ensuring that our pet for the evening hadn't moved from her position by the couch. I knew that her knees would be hurting by now, her muscles tense and burning with the strain of holding still.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Wacky Wednesday

Howdy!  Hope everyone had a happy valentine's day...


Since I did a WIP for Monday, I'm going to do a completed rec for today...just shaking things up this week!
This one comes to you from my AWESOME, FABULOUS, WONDERFUL, SWEET and LOVABLE webmaster, JA Mash. I probably won't get this post right...again...and she'll have to come in and make it all "prettyful" for me.


In case you didn't follow along with the Drabble Wars for this month, I want to bring your attention to her entry, Without A Hitch.  It's a delightfully refreshing take on an Edward and Bella tale.  You will laugh, you will want to smack them both, and you will have your heart thumping by the end.





Summary:  When she tries to help a friend, Bella finds herself as an unofficial advice guru, with Edward as her latest project. Things get complicated when she falls for him instead. Romance/Humor Rated M

Teaser:  The plan they come up with isn't foolproof, but Bella thinks it is pretty close.

If Edward just follows the outline they made and if he applies a liberal amount of charm, he should be fine.

He insists he needs Bella there, though, so she finds herself in the library after work, wandering through the stacks in search of her advisee.

She's not sure if she's supposed to be Edward's moral support or emergency rescue or icebreaker, but whatever. She kind of wants to see the whole plan in action, anyway, because she has a feeling Edward might go off-script without warning, and that could cause trouble.

He may need Bella to do those air traffic control signals in the background to avoid completely embarrassing himself.

That possibility only looks more likely when Bella finds Edward, at a circular table near the front desk, and sees what he's doing.

Edward looks up from his book with a smile when Bella sits down across from him. "Hey."

"Hi," she says. "What're you reading?"

Edward glances down like he's surprised to find out there's a magazine in front of him. "Oh, I don't really know. It was on the table when I got here. I was just pretending to be reading while I was watching for Angela."

"Good plan," Bella says, taking the magazine quickly. "Except you should probably read the cover first." She shows Edward where it says 'Blow His Mind and More!: Fifty Ways to Wow Your Man in Bed' in big bold hot pink letters.

"Oh," Edward says, blushing.

"Yeah," she laughs. "Probably not the best signal to be sending when you're asking a girl for a date."

~~~~~~
So...why are you still here?  Go...Read...Leave her some LOVE!!!


Monday, February 13, 2012

Mentionable Monday

Sooo... my Monday rec spots are usually reserved for completed fics.  However, today, I'm going to rec a new story.  Only 4 chapters are up so far (5 will be up soon), but she has a lot of it pre-written and I'm her beta on it.  This one will come with KINK warnings as it will go to some pretty dark places before it is over.  But, we all like a bit of dark kink, don't we?







Summary:  Edward and Bella, kidnapped and forced to play out a sick man's fantasy where every decision has a consequence. Will Edward and Bella be able to admit their love after the trials they endure? ExB AxJ. Language, lemons, sexual violence, unconventional.

Teaser:  My hands slid up her thighs, lifting the skirt, moving it around her waist.

I groaned when I saw her underwear. She wiggled her little ass for me as I pulled them down around her ankles. She glanced back at me as she stepped out of them.
The look on her face screamed 'take me now'.
I obliged and felt myself glide into her. I watched as my purple dick slid into her wet pink pussy, inch by inch.
"Bella, you feel so wet," I moaned softly, thrusting into her harder.
She reached her hand between her legs and started to rub her clit.
"Yeah, baby, that's it," I moaned. I felt her juices gathering at the base of my cock.


And to further demonstrate Nocturnal's creative capabilities...sit back and enjoy (in private) this little video she put together: